Walking a tightrope

Are you familiar with the Flying Wallendas? The circus daredevil act that does crazy stunts on a high wire without a safety net?

I was refelcting today on my thoughts and mindset with the adoption and realized that I feel like a member of the Wallendas. No, I am not writing this blog post perched on a pole about to walk out on a tightrope. However, I feel like I am balancing my emotions and they are resting on that highwire way up there without a saftey net. Let me try and explain.

On one side, I am trying not to get ahead of myself. Our home study is not complete. What if the agency comes back and says we are not qualified to adopt. (Crazy, I know, but these are my emotions folks). What if the process drags on and on for years? Do we have the staying power and patience for this to go on this long. What if Haiti ratifies the Hague and the process changes dramatically or even worse, adoptions get shut down? How will we cope? How long can we continue in the process with no end in sight?

On the other side, the more I read about GLA (the orphanage), the more I am encouraged by the care the children receive. These kids are loved and well cared for and the orphanage follows the rules and is looking our for both the adopted child, the adopting family, and the birth family. We are hearing reports that Haitian Social Services is moving more quickly on adoptions. This brings hope that our wait might not be as long as expected. We also hear that there are not many requests for boys, and that means that the referral for our son could be right around the corner once GLA gets our paperwork. And, God has called Leslie and I on this journey. That is incredibly powerful and uplifting.

Can you see how I am stuck in a balancing act? Stick with me. It's going to be a crazy balancing act on that high-wire. I know that when it is all over, we can all give a huge standing ovation.